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Hopeless by BellaNellaMorte, literature

The Man by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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The Man

Wrapped up in the shell Of himself, he stares Out the broken window Pain, observing all the People as they walk on by. Each and every one of them Too afraid to give him much More than a fleeting glimpse. For he was an undersireable, In mitigating circumstances out of Reach of himself. And any who Would dare to hear of his story. A hellion, solicitor, Murderer. Atheistic lover of the god in himself Daring to go against the laws Of tradition. Customs and societal sense. With a broken body, with eyes That are alive burning fervent With a desire to live the life, Which they've stolen from him They; naysayers, pharisees, Hyprocrites. Who'd rat

In The Gray by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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In The Gray

Imagine If we lived in black and white Escaping all the goddamn grays That makes us almost Impossible to live Without the scrutiny And I can't say the truth That everything about you Is imprinted in my frontal lobe Even that stupid smirk You'd use for everyothergirl but [me] A constant reminder I'll never escalate to more than Just, "One of the guys" My constant humiliation That I've never managed to free myself From my mastered masquerade And all the time I'm wishin' I wish I had another name Imagine

Firework by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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Firework

Sparks fly, as fireworks light the sky Painting a lovely hue And she remembers All she's forgotten, knowingly Tears fall, against her will As she remembers She remembers She re-members Time, is nothing but a hindrance To all, that still wishes to live in love And love is nothing but Nothing but Nothing, Anymore Sparks die, no fireworks in the sky Darkness, is all that meets the eye And she has hidden All her problems, very deep Tears fall, streaming from her heart She's breathing under water She can't take this feeling, of despair This feeling of despair And I tell her that I love her And I, pray that it's enough

Insomnia by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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Insomnia

Remedies, remedies Bottles, pre-scribed and filled None could ever shut down His marathon mind He stands by his window Silently watching the city sleep And wonders where the sandman is The man who can make him cease Cease...Forgetting today {Forgetting Everything} Forgetting the dangers of the jungle Even just for a few hours Where he can dream he's finally achieved His lifetime goals {Dreamed up realities are better than no possibilities} Instead he's faced with the burden Of seeing tomorrow Before he's been revived Of battles fought yesterday And just like that, The dawn breaks even Already forgetting what he couldn't f

In Retrospect by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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In Retrospect

I don't know anymore How to pray for the little things Life has to offer, but Just for the strength to survive, fight For the rights I'm never gonna have So I'm gonna fight in this losing battle For acceptance Recognition at any level Happiness now a past dream I just need to be seen for me I'll stop counting stars That fall from the blanket of night And now gaze at the majesty Of those still filled with life I'm gonna climb, I'm gonna fly To heights, higher Than they think I can I'm gonna soar with all these scars No longer picking at scabs that Remind me, of the hurt I got I don't know anymore How to pray for the litt

don't ask, I won't share by BellaNellaMorte, literature

Slaying Dragons by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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Slaying Dragons

Tattoo your kiss upon my brow And paint my thoughts with reminiscences of you Before I can no longer recall how it was to be loved -for you've left me here to wilt and die a rose in a field of nonchalance- Strum my chords once more To play the song we matched Word to sugary melody -touch me again in spaces that make me sing for I am happiest, skin pressed against skin- Create a heated wonder that called for an acclaim This left us both breathless in the end Unable to describe the glory of what was -together we were magical and I am not afraid of dragons anymore- Not Anymore...

Umbrella For A Lover by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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Umbrella For A Lover

Baby I ain't as strong as I like you to think I can't run through walls Or break your every fall Shielding life's shortcomings I'm not as selfless as I seem I know how "I'm not happy" can be So I'll not pretend That these skies will never carry pain Or say you'll never get wet on cloudy days Instead I'll be the one Holding you tight Giving you warmth After the sky tears fall Because I know what it's like To be caught in the rain

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Hopeless by BellaNellaMorte, literature

The Man by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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The Man

In The Gray by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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In The Gray

Firework by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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Firework

Insomnia by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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Insomnia

In Retrospect by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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don't ask, I won't share by BellaNellaMorte, literature

Slaying Dragons by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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Slaying Dragons

Umbrella For A Lover by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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Umbrella For A Lover

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Hopeless by BellaNellaMorte, literature

In The Gray by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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In The Gray

Lost Sheep by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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Lost Sheep

I got mad at me and took it out on You anything to feel better I chucked my black leathered Bible on my desk Too distraught to care to pray or ask if You were near- because if You were, I would not have felt so cold The twenty-third Psalm a sour mockery rang in my mind – a result of gram's drilling as a child "The Lord is my Shepherd" and yes I did want so much for this Void to disappear This void he left – to kill me I'm sorry God my faith is now like a candle in the wind and I've got no more matches, I should have read my Bible more.

Unsent Letters To her: 2 by BellaNellaMorte, literature

Unsent Letters To her: 3 by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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Unsent Letters To her: 3

I am a monster Not like the kind That never exists past your tv screen I am The kind that lurks inside the calmest mind And purest of hearts Docile Nurtured And like a child left to himself Brings a shame Too large to hide Under the carpet of time Pregnant with subtle illusions That makes you feel safe around me And you can't see my face For the layers are just too much So you cry dry eyed While you try to dissect me Knowing what's not real You are a monster And I fear you more than myself Because I've loaded the gun You now hold to my head With 'I Love you's' and other Useless idioms That make me feel Useless [I

To her tombstone by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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To her tombstone

I. It's not that I didn't love you. II. It's just my instinct to take flight when the waters around me are shaken so much that I can no longer see my reflection. I'm scared to go closer, so I deprive myself of a drink that might cool my soul in this furnace of a world. And I run to save myself. III. I never thought of what might happen to you in the process. Until now. I guess it's too late to want to explain and give answers to questions I've shied away, say, two years too late. IV. If I had known, you were my last chance to drink and thirst no more. I'd have drowned myself in you. Really, I would've.

Remembrance - A Cinquain by BellaNellaMorte, literature

I'll Still Write... by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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I'll Still Write...

I was beginning to wonder What was the point Of me writing Pouring my heart out For you people to tell me My punctuation is all wrong My cadence is a little off To fix the continuity of my flow And to try putting some rhy In my rhythm With a bit of alliteration Making my verses more fluid Then I remembered I don't write for you I write for me So what if I want to Ignore rhythm Andrushmywords Breaking them A little Too Short Writing words without wanting To twist tongues And now because I feel like it Here will be my full stop ----> .

'Tis Broken by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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'Tis Broken

Don't lie to yourself, And to me. We're all born with white hearts, With atinyblackspot in them, That slowly mingles the older we get. Because everybadreaction causes, An unexplained attraction to danger, And we know it hurts us and others, Yet still the thrill is just toodarngoodtostop, Since that tiny black spot tells us, It's alright to be bad; Because everyone got that tinyblackspot in them too, Even the most [proclaimed] self-righteous. And So we're Stained, that which was once white. Will never be pure again; This world, Our bodies, Our spirit, Our souls, DiSfIgUrEd, By our selfish struggle. And still we cry, while we sh

Belles' Letters - 1 by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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Belles' Letters - 1

It's not that I've forgotten how you tasted. I've not forgotten, Those forbidden mornings I woke in your arms. I just that I've forced myself to forget. I didn't want to; [At first] But the cracks in the pavements, Were just too real for me to, Ignore. I tired. Not to step on them. Yet, They messed with my head. Those imperfections I saw, In me, through you. [Even the strongest foundation shift under pressure] I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

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Pure by Kaisikudo, literature

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Pure

You are a suddenly-night enflamed, all at once A dark and brightly beautiful. Stars Trail where you tread, rivering between Faintly your thoughts, For faintly they express A soul of light and temperance. You are an instantly-sea alive, all at once A calm and roaring beautiful. Waves Form when you speak, glistening within Sweetly your smiles, For sweetly they attest A heart of warmth and innocence. You are a perfectly-sky beheld, all at once A clear and stormy beautiful. Clouds Watch while you sleep, gathering around Softly your dreams, For softly they reveal A life of love made effortless.

The Man by BellaNellaMorte, literature

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The Man

Orchestra by Poetrymann, literature

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Orchestra

Four a.m is uneasy - time purloined and left hanging on the bed posts. You said I crowd your sleep, feet and hands slipping cotton, pulling dreams in paper streams like the nest of wasps growing restless in the tree. Your legs make room for me, for the sound of weather happening on the roof, and warm the space above us, setting fire to the drapes again. Just let me feel your clavicle press under my hips where daylight squeezes in and hinges us. So we both can waken slowly, you know, like kids in summer who long for everything to never end and the sky to be an orchestra

War and Cancer by Poetrymann, literature

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War and Cancer

I want to go back and meet us one more time, before the war and the cancer took up so much of the day - before my father could no longer remember what the present was supposed to mean and your mother could still get dressed without losing her way. I want to know what it felt like to board a plane to somewhere hidden and not care if our names and faces became lost; to walk as long as we wanted without the sun and moon creating an argument. I want to feel you roll into my arms where I forgot to cut the grass and you did not water the flowers; to hear you watching the cardinals unearth the spring. And to know once again how this place between u

September by Poetrymann, literature

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September

The summer was so hot the dogs stuck to the sidewalks with the newspapers and the black metal cans everyone left waiting on the curb. You could smell it in the glass pitchers on table tops, and the sheets that never dried on the clothes lines; the canvas beach bags mothers dragged wearily across the sand and the ice cream trucks melting across the highways. Children felt it open up the windows at night and find a corner of the bed to smother, while fathers baited it on hooks or mowed it down in flat, dry stripes as if begging each other to escape. And the crickets just hummed beneath the corn silk and the dry mouth

You Colour My Darkness by Arraveci, literature

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You Colour My Darkness

Salient darkness and all of this Luminance, the brightness is Dazzling against the background of Souls and life transitory defies me Like you do. The colours of your mind Seem to bleed into Design and Destiny And I am Disorder derived from Drizzled Chaos, the endless maelstrom of my home Knows no colour, my soul simply cursed To know no joy from shades other than Black and White. I embody good and evil Like I eat them for breakfast and so Often the colours simply fade to the Shade, the endless glades of graves of My conquests brimming with bodies devoid Of all but binary shades. I know what I Should do here, I know no future's

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BellaNellaMorte

May 21, 2012

Who is this stranger writing in my Journal?

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Well hello friends, I am now back from haitus aka school and am in my wonderful country again for the next three months... how I've missed it. So now i am about to go through this mountain call deviantwatch messages and I'm excited to see how much everyone has grown in writing. I have not written a thing until today so it might be a while for me to get back into things. I do hope you all have been well these last couple of months! I missed you all very much!

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BellaNellaMorte

Oct 11, 2011

Just saying

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I'm still alive people and will be posting, reading, faving, commenting, from time to time Love ya'll

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BellaNellaMorte

Apr 30, 2011

VERY IMPORTANT NEWS

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I'M LEAVING! YUP, YOU GOT IT, I REALLY DO NOT HAVE THE TIME TO COME ON HERE ANYMORE, IT DOESN'T LINE UP WITH WHERE I WANT TO GO AND WHAT I WANT TO DO.... BASICALLY I WASTE TIME HERE, AND I RECENTLY SAW IT. DON'T GET ME WRONG I'LL STILL WRITE AND I'LL MISS A LOT OF YOU, SO IF YOU DO STILL WANT TO KEEP IN TOUCH PLZ INBOX ME BEFORE TOMORROW ENDS AND I'LL GIVE YOU MY EMAIL ADDRESS SO WE CAN KEEP IN CONTACT. IF NOT THEN I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST IN YOU EN-DEVOURS!! LOTTA LOVE I WANT TO THANK EVERYONE WHO HAVE MADE MY TIME HERE MOST WONDERFUL (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE). THANK YOU VERY MUCH!! -CHERYL